How do people live not believing in Jesus?

He died and took everyone's sin away forever. All you have to do is put your trust in the son of God. Deep down in your heart,deep down in you mind I know you hear/feel him.so why deny your self of this wonderful gift of God. Please don't compare Jesus to a meatball monster/pink unicorn or any other nonsense, break that barrier down and stop being scared Jesus is never going to hurt you or leave you he loves you even now